A difficult conversation

Isaac has started asking more questions so after school today we sat down with him to try and explain a bit more.

I tried to explain what cancer is and how it spreads and stresssed the fact that it is completely random. He said not lung cancer “because that’s the really bad one” so we had to explain that the brain tumours are bad and because there are several of them they can’t be removed. Daddy will just need medicine, really strong medicine to try and stop them getting worse. But they can’t be fixed or taken away. Explained that the medicine may make daddy seem more poorly, like the radiotherapy caused my hair to fall out and the Christmas Day seizure but it will hopefully work and make daddy feel better.

we had to explainthat we don’t know if the medicine will work and that I will need to take the medicine for 6 months and the worst case is that the medicine doesn’t work, daddy may not live We’ve just got to be strong , hope the medicine works, make memories and be happy for each other. He was worried about all my stories not getting finished, so I am going to put all your Burlington sketches into a book so he can write the stories to go with them. He also wants to help me finish The Adventues of Pritchett and Banks

he was also upset that I might not become a Grandada but said we will just have to remind our children about you like you do with Grandad L we then lay on the bed and cuddled, which for Isaac is a very special thing. He was also worried about how Noah and Imogen will cope, so I told him that with a big brother like him looking after them they will be fine, and made sure he knew the fight isn’t over.